september

so, it's already september and i'm kind of beginning to think, "wow...the end is really drawing near." it's a bizarre feeling. bittersweet.

at the beginning of this semester i was severely unhappy. i had had a pretty crummy summer, had just returned from the most amazing vacation, and got to be in knoxville...again.

i'll just be completely honest and say that my time of love for knoxville has definitely ended. this is not supposed to sound cynical or really bad in any sense, i just think that my time here is about over and i'm ready to move on to somewhere else.

everything here seems stale.

my life has become very organized and i think i'm kind of disliking that. i mean, each day is literally constructed by a list on a post-it note on my desk. i find pleasure in crossing things off. each day is a strict schedule of class, homework, and work. that really is mostly what my time consists of.

i will say, though, there are several people that i've been making time for and they seriously have made all the difference.

corbin. brittni. lydia. mary.

need i say more?
i love these people. absolutely love them.

i've learned that making time to see people...making an effort...is worth everything.

aside from all of this, i have decided at a really awkard time that what i really want to do with my life is not at all what i'm actually doing.

i've decided to graduate in may, then go back to school somewhere far away and get a degree in nutrition. i feel like this has really become my passion. now, i'm not saying that i want to cross out photography...that would be a big lie. i just want to put that on the backburner for now. learm more as i go...maybe have a little business on the side. i mean, i got asked to photograph a girl's wedding that i know in may, so that could be a start although i'm very nervous about it.

it's all just a lot to process...
but in the meantime, i cannot wait for autumn.