i mean... yeah. i have noticed lately that things that i always thought would be easy, just aren't. i've placed high standards on way too many things in my life. we aren't always going to be content where we are. life isn't full of sunshine and daisies all of the time.
i have placed myself in the oddest emotional position.
am i upset? no.
angry? no.
happy? no.
confused? i guess...
i feel like i'm supposed to be able to label what i'm feeling right now, but i can't quite place my finger on it. something isn't right and i don't know how to fix it... but that's just it. i don't have to fix anything. i feel like i'm always needing to fix something.
i start saying all of these things and i think now i'm just going to stop. i feel like i start to ramble on about things that i do wrong or things that i could do better, when in reality i just need to quit. quit talking. quit trying to control everything. i just need to let things happen naturally.
i need to sleep is what i think i need to do.
i've got a lot to work on. i want to become confident in christ and be pleased with how things are. i take way too much for granted. this was a jumbled post... much like my brain is right now, but i feel much much better. la fin.
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