nerves

i don't know why, but lately i've been kind of stressed by really stupid things. i am looking too far ahead instead of focusing on what's happening right now. it's frustrating. i think i've just entered one of those places where i'm 'lukewarm' and not on fire by anything. this happens way too often. the sad thing, though, is that i have no strong desire to change. whhyyy do people do this? i feel sometimes that i'm the worst. that's probably a selfish thought. i'm not sure.

i start work this week and i'm really nervous. i know it will be great..it's just getting through the initial stage that sucks usually. honestly, i think what makes me nervous is the fact that i'm entering my final year at UT and i'm afraid that i'm not really going to be around much. i'll be taking a pretty heavy load at school and whenever i'm free i'll either be working or doing homework. i feel that that leaves little time to be around those i love. i saw ethan last night and we talked about how we wanted to actually see people more this year. i guess i was just thinking about it and realized that i would be so disappoined if i couldn't be a part of that.

this really is a worthless post. i'll try and find something more interesting to post later.

i'll leave whoever actually reads this with this statement from fmylife.com:

Today, I was at McDonald's and I was going through the drive-thru. As I was driving away, I checked my food and the lady had given me a Night at the Museum Happy Meal toy by mistake. I got so excited that I crashed the car into a pole. I'm 36. FML